Letter 07: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Dear You,

beautiful, cruel you,

I used to love the idea of you,

your fingers tangled in mine,

soft lips pressing to the curve of my throat,

whispering how you wanted me.

Then you took my black marker

and dotted a short line down my sternum

guidelines, you'd said, to take my heart

and then laughed, kissing me.

Who knew that a few weeks later,

you did exactly that

-

and left me broken.

Loved,

Me.

As long as the ending is the same.

he was my last goodbye,

[ b r e a k ]

he was my first hello.

sometimes the journey doesn't matter

Maiden's Bay.

she lashes out at the tides,

ocean eyes drying up in their cracks,

tears dragging themselves away from the edge,

where fluttering eyelashes tear at the wind

it's hard to cry,

she had always said,

with the clumsy wind in your eyes

Author's Note

Lack of creativity due to exams - will be revived soon.

She's tired of your lies.

forgive me love, 

forgive me, forgive him, forgive us but--

champagne flutes stopped singing love songs

our soundtrack faded into overcast silence long ago

(and that broken red radio needs to go)

it was the only musical warmth you offered me.

She cries again tonight.

I crawl underneath the opaque luminescent canvas stretched over your wrist

you caress with glorified secrets, scarlet lines tangled like telephone wires

communication never works one way honey

A   N   D

neither does love

Fragmented dreams.

I capture flickering shadows

and hang them above my heart

smiles withering like broken flowers

eyes haunted by the eclipsing sun

"a storm is coming"

"yes."

Lips sweeter than honey.

your smile hangs over me like the december mist

i feel something bloom inside my barren heart

temptation beckons to me with a sultry smile

I push down my glass walls and roll out the welcome mat

[" please, come in, make yourself at home "]

sometimes i look into my reflection and whisper,

"stupid, stupid girl."

Improvisation.

He wasn't a conformist and

he didn't want to understand art,

(his colours never stay inside the lines)

but he understands me.

he can feel when I'm breaking,

jagged cracks running down my heart,

eyes wrestling to hold back

pools and oceans. 

he knows that i never cry,

e v e r

except for him.

Devil-may-care

i'll waste away saturday nights with

insights into how cavalier I used to be;

that instant, perfect moment of insanity,

echoing with silent apathy,

i close my eyes

and the world fades away.

Skies of love.

none but the heavens see my desires

strung together into one hypnotic melody

i wonder if the cherubims will sing tonight.

Amare sine timore

Butterfly Kisses

Diamonds glimmer behind veiled lashes,

 flutterflutterflutter on by

sketching constellations in my eyes

[ "stella" ] you whisper under your breath

press your love against my lips,

and i'll press my wishes against your heart.

Spring is ending.

. f r a g i l e .

i am her and she is

[ m e ]

and soon my existence

will wilt

like summer flowers.

Author's note: mini collab with juniper

Scarlet Serpents.

scarlet trickles through ashen layers

paving a story through milky grooves

she smiles at the serpent coiled around her wrist

and whispers hymns to it lovingly

[ help me ]

fingers stain iced-glass

i scream her name but no reply

I watch the snake grow in size, 

poison electric blue in her veins.

I want to reach and brush her face,

wipe her tears and call her name...

but i can only watch, i can only watch,

i can only cry.

(Yes X, this is for you)

i should be studying and

your name finds itself onto every page,

scrawled in messy italicized ink

the "i" and "you" barely legible

[ you always said I was childish ]

I love it--your disapproving look

it makes me want to smoothen your frown

and whisper secret languages into your lips

[ Accipe me sicut sum aut antique me ut inventisi ]

ink seems to be permanent.