For I am unwanted.

like a rose

you grow

 entwine around my ribs

and crawl up my sternum

to wrap tightly around my heart

intoxicate me with your scent

poison me with your beauty

and stab me with your thorns

dripping with burning sin

and i nestle

like a weed

in between your leaves

to find the soothing shade i crave

and seek your delicious poison

feed on our sins

like the desperate tormentor i am

useless and dangerous

green with envy

holding on

like a lifeline

Because I am autumn.

autumn leaves tremble under your fingertips

and they b r e a k

falling and fading into

nothingness

but in your arms i am something

[warm&

fragile&

vulnerable&]

maybe I don't mind

breaking.

My love, I fly.

Because in my dreams I can fly

so I fly to you, amor meus

[ my love ]

beating hard with charred wings

i hold on to the unforgiving wind, ardor meus

[ my passion]

the shackles are burning reality into my ankles, 

but i keep running--i run to you, vita mea

[ my life ]

over oceans of broken glass i may fall

but i will fly, to you

Aevum, amor meus

[ forever, my love ]

Because.

i love you

in the way that i don't understand

i don't love you in the way others love you

but i do love you the way i love certain things

i love you as beauty is to be loved

in kind words, kind eyes, kind lips

there is beauty in your kindness

that i love

i love you as secrets are to be loved

in the shadows, corners, darkness of the soul

there are mysteries in your whispers

that i love

and i love you as lovers are to be loved

in whispers, sighs and pleasure

there is contentment in your warmth

that i love

but truthfully

i don't understand how to love

not in the way you love me

but in the way i love you

that i do, love.

Painkiller.

it hurts

and every kiss, planting roses, you press

down the roads of my neck

leave me b r e a t h l e s s

and you're my aphrodisiac

all glorious nectar clinging to thirsty tongues

and i drink in you,

as you drink in me

and drain my innocence

like blood.

leaving me empty, empty, empty,

and nothing but roses to hold onto.

Empty hands.

calm your stormy heart

and pull together the stitches

that held apart the dreams so painful

this glass-heart you hold in trembling hands

you can't dream because you have lost

but

calm dreams won't return to stormy hearts

and cease those dreamless nights

let the ashes of your heart

rise to meet the salty foams

that wash away your tearful sighs

and let your lips meet his ocean eyes

then kiss the crossroads on his brow

and tread along that dusty road

and 

leave footprints on his

sullen heart

and let the waves

wash hers behind

For stars can't hide your smiles

pluck me, for i'm simply strung, 

all string and heartstring for you to cut across

with sickly sweetened words and soothing tones

leave me voiceless, action-less,

[ yet so much more ]

Phosphenes dances across deserts

and crash-lands in your eyes

and you're in every one of my dreams

" kiss me goodnight "

it's not possible to love you more than now

and forever

I love you as dark things are to be loved...

Te amo como se aman ciertas cosa oscuras,  secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.

And sometimes it gets hard to breathe around you, when your fingers trace letters into the palm of my hands and your eyes whisper tantalizing secrets into my heart. When your warm breath plays around my earlobes and your chest thumping love into my back. My body you say, my curves are beautiful but what I find most beautiful are your artists' fingers -- softening the harsh edges of my being. Melting my demeanor into nothing but shadow, satin and water, child's play for you.

Break me, for I'm yours.